[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
I was barely one
When you came from Jamaica
Momma working two jobs
So you came to raise her
One and only son
Forget the daycare
Far too costly
And kids never played fair
Mom was always working
Cause bills kept piling
Plus she had to send money back to the Island
Maybe that’s why I spent most of my time with you
Sing a couple hymns from a book that’s blue
Memba being teased by them kids at school
I came home and asked why they were so cruel
You held me and told me
Forgive them Soup
They know not what they have done to you
Hurt cause I thought you had took their side
Peckish for destruction and they took my pride
Proud like my father but you showed me strength
Is the courage not to fight even when you can

[Chorus 1X – Timothy Noel]
Now I’m a man
And I see what I really had
I wish I saw then
What I see now in my hindsight
So I’m hurting
I’m hurting
Inside

[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Sunday morning we at Church
Back that evening
Rest of the week
Choir and prayer meetings
Needless to say
With Mom at work
I tagged along with Grandma
And was always church
It was here I met instruments and melodies
Picked it up so easy
That I figured it was meant for me
Eventually words would become my muse
Farfetched dream
But you’d still approved
Didn’t disregard what I hope to be
Only thing you asked
That I get my degree
Kept my promise
And got my degree
But in coming of age
You saw less of me
Maybe that’s the reason
You ain’t tell a soul
That you were fighting cancer
By the time we’d know
The cancer’s growth
Gave you months to live
Where was my time from before to give?

[Chorus 1X – Timothy Noel]
Now I’m a man
And I see what I really had
I wish I saw then
What I see now in my hindsight
So I’m hurting
I’m hurting
Inside

[Verse 3 – Arlo Maverick]
How could I be selfish
To someone so selfless
To gain a dollar
You could say I lost my senses
So caught up with my music
I would visit you less
Taking you for granted
Never figured you’d get
Old or even ill
But mortalities real
As I wrestle with these thoughts
It’s distracting me still
You introduced me to music
Then I left you to wife it
Now thing I love most
Now symbolizes
Pain and regret
And the reason that I’m lonely
The reason why my loved ones
No longer can hold me
Wish you were here
But then you would suffer
Sadly it took me
This to discover
The meaning of scriptures
You read to me
Or the hymns you would sing
Just to remedy
When I questioned your illness
You said it’s his plan
Even though my heart agrees
I can’t understand

[Outro – Timothy Noel]
Can you hear me
I’m saying I love you
Can you hear me
I’m saying thank you
Can you hear me
I’m saying I miss you
And I’m hurting
Inside