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Subconscious
00:48
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N/A
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[Intro – Arlo Maverick]
Uh
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yo Blitz
Tell the waitress bring another one quick
Cause I don’t give a fuck no mo
Said I don’t give a fuck no mo
Said I don’t give a fuck no mo
I said… (Beyach)
I don’t give a fuck no mo
Said I don’t give a fuck no mo
Said I don’t give a fuck no mo
[Chorus 1X – Lee’On ]
You or the world
I got decisions I should make
But I’ll save that shit for later, nah, nah, nah
You can pour me up a drink
You can pour me up a drink
I don’t really wanna think right now, now, now
And who said that I can’t have both
Them people lyin’
Them people lyin’
And who said that I can’t have both
Them people lyin’
Them people lyin’
[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
Just when I thought
I
Was up on the up
Misery came and did not give fuck
Could it be
I
Was playing pretend
Dreamt of success
Money I’d spend
Buy Mom
A house
Fly Granny back home
Kind’a cliché
But it’s all that we know
When I drink
You’re still here
Singin’ your hymns
Praying I’m safe
Praying I win
You hope for the best
Hope I’m not high
There’s no hope in hell
Your grandson would survive
Without all this liquor
Without all this lye
To put it quite frank I would kill for that vice
Robbed of my right
Now I see clear
Fear you’ll regret
I regret I have feared
Again I will ask
What words can be said
What passionate pleas can you offer to end?
[Chorus 1X – Lee’On]
You or the world
I got decisions I should make
But I’ll save that shit for later, nah, nah, nah
You can pour me up a drink
You can pour me up a drink
I don’t really wanna think right now, now, now
And who said that I can’t have both
Them people lyin’
Them people lyin’
And who said that I can’t have both
Them people lyin’
Them people lyin’
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Mornings I throw
Up
Evidence of
Demons that torment my mind
Face in the sink
My
Stomach it cries
Every yell echoing why
So scared to walk
Alone
It is what it is
Sadly I’m driven to drink
Driving me crazy
Drove out of mind
Man I bought a new lease on life
Shit, I feel like a king when I’m drinking that crown
Spend money like water I’m ready to drown
Thirsty for comfort
Maybe you’ll call me a drunkard
Pointing repentance upward
Hoping that God me covered
Only he knows how I suffered
Only he knows how I loved Her
[Chorus 2X – Lee’On]
You or the world
I got decisions I should make
But I’ll save that shit for later, nah, nah, nah
You can pour me up a drink
You can pour me up a drink
I don’t really wanna think right now, now, now
And who said that I can’t have both
Them people lyin’
Them people lyin’
And who said that I can’t have both
Them people lyin’
Them people lyin’
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[Intro – K-Riz]
Living my life
Confused and surprised
Running off a cliff with a blindfold
On my eyes
Desist and alive
It’s a contradiction that I’m
Running off a cliff with a blindfold
On my eyes
[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
With all my success
You ask do I have the same fears
I lost my granny and my wifey in the same year
Better question is
Did I shed the same tear
Both left
But my girl could’ve stayed here
Is it safe to assume
If she come back
That she settled for my love
Then I must ask
Why must love be giftwrapped?
With clauses
See the musk of mistrust
Makes me nauseous
First she wonders like Stevie
Do she need me
Then she wanders like Stevie
Hoping to see
Lost the presence of my future
What’s to live for?
And my past is a bitch
I’d rather Ms. More
Spent years on a love that would not fight
At the first sign of guilt’s trip
It took flight
Yet nights she ain’t here
Just don’t seem right
Not waking to her smile
That don’t feel right
[Chorus 1X – K-Riz]
And I’m falling down (Falling down)
When I’m alone
I need more than this
And I’ve hit the ground (Hit the ground)
I’m holding onto nothing
That’s what I have seem to found (Seem to found)
When I’m alone
I need more than this
And I’m falling down (Falling down)
I’m falling down (Falling down)
[Chorus Tag 2X – K-Riz]
Where do I go to?
Who do I run to?
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Am I trapped by her love?
Or I’m chained by my pride?
The fact that I shrug
The campaign of lies
Points to dysfunction
I’m used to
My heart wanna run
But I choose to
Stay in this mess
Bet you’ll ask me
How much more pain
Will make me happy
Well
Love is blind
But it’s deaf too
And you won’t see its depth
Till you have two
Yeah I tried to move on
It was too soon
Cause no matter how beautiful
She’s not you
No matter how funny
She cannot claim
Thinking that I’m over
Call her, your name
Now my hearts out of tempo
Now in limbo
Kisses she blows
Leave me exposed
Kisses she blows
Give my heart hope
But only God knows
If I’ll let go
[Chorus 1X – K-Riz]
And I’m falling down (Falling down)
When I’m alone
I need more than this
And I’ve hit the ground (Hit the ground)
I’m holding onto nothing
That’s what I have seem to found (Seem to found)
When I’m alone
I need more than this
And I’m falling down (Falling down)
I’m falling down (Falling down)
[Chorus Tag 2X – K-Riz]
Where do I go to?
Who do I run to?
[Verse 3 – Arlo Maverick]
When your hearts still healing
Is it fair to
Seek another soul
To repair you
What happens when it heals?
And your hearts fine
Will you higher their love
Or keep’em part time
Scorned by my love
So she act up
Now I gotta deal
With the wrath of
More than a girl
Who gave the ass up
But her mind can’t help
But think she lacks of
Strong and Independent
Yet a break up
Reveals her dependency
To fake love
To me she was more
Than a rebound
But I
Fought every feeling that we found
See I fought it though she stimulate sexually
So much in common
Her and I connected mentally
But I fiend for the one who unrelentingly
Plays the strings of my heart like a melody
[Chorus 1X – K-Riz]
And I’m falling down (Falling down)
When I’m alone
I need more than this
And I’ve hit the ground (Hit the ground)
I’m holding onto nothing
That’s what I have seem to found (Seem to found)
When I’m alone
I need more than this
And I’m falling down (Falling down)
I’m falling down (Falling down)
[Outro 2X]
Can we turn it around (Turn it around)
Put back together
This love with you I found
Can we turn it around (Turn it around)
Make this last forever
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[Pre-Chorus 2X – Oozeela]
Moment that I seen that girl
Everything I need that girl
Ain’t a chick that can beat that girl
Now I’m tryn’a be with her
[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
Met her back in college
Both of us were freshmen
I can’t front
I was checking for your best friend
No kissin or sexin
Merely being social
Moment that you spoke
Your best friend was old news
Confident and tempting
Blessed with them curves too
Said that you love hard
So fuck around I’ll murk you
Independent bad girl
Looking for a partner
Many dudes tried
You didn’t want a sponsor
Asked what you taking
Said education
Loved kids
And hoped to shape a nation
Glanced at your syllabus
Ain’t met a girl as real as this
Stimulate me mentally
But you prolly figure its
Your ass that attracts me
Lying if I said no
Lips so soft
Can’t help but to get close
First time for everything
Maybe my first love
Long as you hold me down
Never be in search of
[Chorus 2X – Oozeela]
Look what I found
I never felt love, she holdin’ me down
Anytime I need you, you be around
She’s holdin’ me down, she’s holdin’ me down
She’s holdin’ me down
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Three months into dating
And your heart is my home and
Nights we don’t study
We spend hours on phones damn
Talking sports and politics
Put you onto new jams
Beast in the kitchen
Spoiling me with your food, can’t
Picture life without you
I’d like to
Dedicate my life to
Ultimately wife you
My kiss, my bond to
Never hurt you
Should I have concerns boo
Know you’ll be the first to
Know how my heart feels
Words go a long way
Steered by your drive babe
So I offer strong praise
Notice the little things
New hair or outfit
Scents that you love most
How you like your lips kissed
How you like’m licked
How you like to be touched
How you wanna be held
Right after a good cut
First time for everything
Maybe my first love
Long as you hold me down
Never be in search of
[Chorus 2X – Oozeela]
Look what I found
I never felt love, she holdin’ me down
Anytime I need you, you be around
She’s holdin’ me down, she’s holdin’ me down
She’s holdin’ me down
[Verse 3 – Arlo Maverick]
Graduated college
And we got ourselves a place, uhh
Not what we wanted
But affordable and spacious
Money is tight
But at least we got us though
Cheque to cheque
And we just over broke yo
Tryna be a power cup
Goals to empower us
Never do we power trip
Argue bout control of
Yes I know its been tough
But we gotta focus us
Build on our strengths to
Tackle what oppose us
Can’t buy you finer things
So I budget time to spend
Money can’t buy love
So I pay attention
Ride like you sposed to
Catch me in shortfall
No chick compare to
Rest assured your all
I need in my lifetime
You’re my lifeline
Even my boys say
It’s high time
First time for everything
Maybe my first love
Long as you hold me down
Never be in search of
[Chorus 4X – Oozeela]
Look what I found
I never felt love, she holdin’ me down
Anytime I need you, you be around
She’s holdin’ me down, she’s holdin’ me down
She’s holdin’ me down
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5. |
Change of Heart
04:59
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[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
Since the young heal quick
Should I endure more pain
Sometimes I feel sick
Knowing I own your name
Two sides to every story
Should I know your pain
Affairs of the heart
Maybe I’m your stain
Unanswered questions
So anger tampers my ration
Not sure what you imagined
But this convo gon’ be passioned
Where do I even start
No better place then the intro
Alive and well
But Momma might as well have been a widow
Probably hard for you to hear
But I can’t say that I care
When she
Needed a husband
Tell me exactly where
When I
Needed a father
Tell me exactly where
Now you
Seeking forgiveness
Can’t say you’ll find it here
Please forgive me while I hop up on this tangent
About the milestones in my life
You were absent
About the
Father’s Day cards I’d make in grade school
But never had an address to mail to
Now should I say anything
That I can’t take back
Think of all the debt
That you can’t pay back
Think of all the years
You can’t play back
Maybe its just better we
Don’t say jack
Cause Pops
I can’t bond with you
I got some trust issues
And though my heart miss you
My anger won’t give you
I’m still pissed at you
The very dismissal
Maybe it’s’ best if you
Yea, it’s’ best if you
… yea, it’s best if you
[Chorus 1X – Arlo Maverick]
I found it in my heart to forgive
But I can’t say that I’ll ever forget (Change of Heart)
I found it in my heart to forgive
But I can’t say that I’ll ever forget (Change of Heart)
I found it in my heart to forgive
But I can’t say that I’ll ever forget (Change of Heart)
I found it in my heart to forgive
But I can’t say that I’ll ever forget
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Momma
I know you love me
And though I shouldn’t question it
My heart is full of doubt
From the many times I questioned if
You wish you never had me
Never met my father
Maybe you’d be happy
Maybe you’d farther
Cause 21 and pregnant
Wasn’t part of your plan
With no time for assessment
You ain’t wait on no man
Your trials and tribulations
No I don’t know the half
Though life is complicated
Now and then you should laugh
See I avoided this discussion
Cause truth is interrupted
Percussions of assumptions
They ricochet, repercussions
I’m grown, no longer ducking
Please have this discussion
How dare you accustom
Your son to dysfunction
I know you worked harder
So I could work smarter
But have you pondered?
And are you bothered
With leaving me not physically
Certainly emotionally
Possibly why Grandma was so close to me
Now should I say anything
I can’t take back
Think of all the years
That you can’t take back
Daddy wasn’t there
But it don’t excuse that
Why you rarely smiled
And I barely know your laugh
See mom
You stayed silent
So quickly I accepted
That love is rarely public
Guess my issues with affection
Stem from only huggin you on holidays
Sorry it’s one of many things that I gotta say
… one of many things that I gotta say
[Chorus 1X – Arlo Maverick]
I found it in my heart to forgive
But I can’t say that I’ll ever forget (Change of Heart)
I found it in my heart to forgive
But I can’t say that I’ll ever forget (Change of Heart)
I found it in my heart to forgive
But I can’t say that I’ll ever forget (Change of Heart)
I found it in my heart to forgive
But I can’t say that I’ll ever forget
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6. |
More featuring Oozeela
05:08
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[Intro – Oozeela]
You’ve got some
I’ve got none
You’ve got some
I’ve got none
You’ve got some
I’ve got none
You’ve got some
I’ve got none
[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
Ravenous mind
In the time of my childhood
Hoping to fit in
And maybe buy some fly goods
Wants and needs might blur a bit
Till momma buys coat
Cause sure it fits
School shopping was a nightmare
As I passed the brand names that I might wear
To me
Everything was priceless
But to mom
Items should be priced less
… Although fly like some blue jays
Every time I asked for some new Js
Momma gotta ask how we’ll pay rent
Man, half the time she ain’t make cents
I mean, why I gotta look old fashion
Clothes out of style like I don’t know fashion
Sikes is a good line
Momma that’s good try
How I’m spose to get chicks
When I never look fly
[Chorus Pt. 1]
You got some money for the Nikes?
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
You got some money for the Kool-Aid?
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
You got some money for the Movies?
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
You got some money for the Candy
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
[Chorus Pt. 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Waking up every morning thinking how will I survive
(There’s more to this life than this)
And we here broke
But momma put in that overtime
(There’s more to this life than this)
Yeah Pops send money
But it’s not all of the time
(There’s more to this life than this)
I should satisfy
But the devils messing with my mind
(There’s more to this life than this)
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Good and bad memories
Relate to my born day
Roots reggae melodies
Recipes that storied
Themselves through aromas
That were trapped in my clothes
Shoestring budget
But momma always coped
Days leading up
Drop hints like Trebek
My birthday’s next week
This is what I should get
Pick out something fly
Momma tell me put the shirt back
Can’t afford that
But she went and bought a Church Hat
Pick out something cheaper
The budget won’t budge
Not even slightly
Forget about Nikes
No way to Safeway
Mom baked rum cake
And if I must say
Better than a Sundae
5 school friends
Limit on my guest list
Mom’s list, endless!
Family in the trenches
Second cousins
Going for seconds like they bought shit
Came in empty handed
Got the nerve to be obnoxious
[Chorus Pt. 1]
You got some money for the Nikes?
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
You got some money for the Kool-Aid?
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
You got some money for the Movies?
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
You got some money for the Candy
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
[Chorus Pt. 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Waking up every morning thinking how will I survive
(There’s more to this life than this)
And we here broke
But momma put in that overtime
(There’s more to this life than this)
Yeah Pops send money
But it’s not all of the time
(There’s more to this life than this)
I should satisfy
But the devils messing with my mind
(There’s more to this life than this)
[Verse 3 – Arlo Maverick]
In December
Instead of singing Christmas carols
We was at my grandma’s
Packing Christmas barrels
I’m talking dish soap
Deodorant and sox
Flat irons
No wonder why we have knots
Can’t understand in elementary
This fiber cylinder
Is how they get to eat
But momma gave a look
And I sat right down
I had more questions
They weren’t said aloud
How come my friends write lists of toys they wish for
They out tobogganing
But me, I’m indoors
Tryn’a fill more
With nuff to ship
So we gotta pack it right
So the contents fit
But what’s the consequence
As we send food south
To our family in Jamaica
Our mouths go without
But grandma passed the sorrel
And tell me not to quarrel
Just hush
God will provide for us
[Chorus Pt. 1]
You got some money for the Nikes?
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
You got some money for the Kool-Aid?
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
You got some money for the Movies?
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
You got some money for the Candy
Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nuh-Nah
[Chorus Pt. 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Waking up every morning thinking how will I survive
(There’s more to this life than this)
And we here broke
But momma put in that overtime
(There’s more to this life than this)
Yeah Pops send money
But it’s not all of the time
(There’s more to this life than this)
I should satisfy
But the devils messing with my mind
(There’s more to this life than this)
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[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
Mind if I
Buy you a drink and share a thought or two
From the time I got off stage
I been watching you
Pretend like you ain’t notice
But I’m onto you
Is it cool if we move to somewhere optimal
Where we can talk and not yell
Kiss and not tell
I know it’s pretty forward
But I cannot help
Buzzed off these shots
If you cannot tell
By the smile in your eyes
You’re turnt up as well
Can I be honest
Sincerity begs clarity
Music so loud
I can tell you barely hearing me
That’s why clubs ain’t a place a brother care to be
Barely hear yourself think
So Similarities
Can be hard to identify
In fact I’m petrified
… why you laughin’ girl
It’s all new
But there’s something bout you
That makes me curious to know more about you
[Chorus 1X – Fendercase]
I don’t wanna live not knowing
If or who or what you could mean to me
(Could this be?)
I don’t wanna live not knowing
What this precious moment could lead to be
(Could this be?)
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Could two complete strangers
Randomly meet
In a place so fake
And actually be
More than one night
But the more that we dream of
How can we be certain if certain we’ve never seen love
Would a kiss determine
What minds can’t confirm
Should we both go first?
Or should I wait to return
Perfect moments
We complicate with doubt
Afraid to ruin
We dare go without, nah
Second kiss
Passionate as the initial one
Just hoping that this little fun
Don’t produce a little one
These stolen moments
We need not police them
Guilty pleasures
We’d kill to conceal them
So surreal
We question if we’re dreaming
Hours of kissing
Passion beyond reason
Even breathings an afterthought
If life interrupts
Do we have to stop
[Chorus 1X – Fendercase]
I don’t wanna live not knowing
If or who or what you could mean to me
(Could this be?)
I don’t wanna live not knowing
What this precious moment could lead to be
(Could this be?)
[Verse 3 – Jaide]
Bet you’re busy at work
But I miss you already
My bed feels like a prison
In fact it’s still messy
Same spot you left me
Patiently waiting
To help me pass the time
My minds replaying
Last night
As if to question my sanity
If all I have is memories
Maybe it’s a fantasy
Me at the edge of the bed
My legs spread
Kissin my inner thighs
My hand against your head
Legs trembling
Perhaps a kiss’ll settle things
The arch in my back is a smile as you’re welcomed in
Inaudible words
So you listen to the rhythm
Of breaths I exhale
Wait for my permission
As I lay here
I wish we stayed here
For that I’d trade years
Cause my hearts afraid there’s
No way we can remake last night and what not
Never mind I’m rambling
Call me when you get off
[Chorus 2X – Fendercase]
I don’t wanna live not knowing
If or who or what you could mean to me
(Could this be?)
I don’t wanna live not knowing
What this precious moment could lead to be
(Could this be?)
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[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
Please forgive me
For doubting the love you’ve given me
But I remember vividly
What these chicks did to me
Don’t mean to pigeonhole
But most women I know
Think they’re in control
And miss the pick and roll
You give, then he goes
He pivots, the pinnacle
He won’t give up rings
But you give up your goals
Then when given gold
You turn cynical
Mind saying it’s bull
So every single soul
With some chivalry
Dismissed cause they timidly
Heart don’t want tranquility
Opting for soliloquies
You will-fully
Accept his polygamy
Then complain about his litany
But girl is you kiddin me
You deliberately
Search for delinquency
Heart lacking in dignity
Eventually you’ll limit me
Of course I’ll be a scrub boo
With too many toos
Too skinny
Too quiet
Too little tattoos
[Chorus 2X – K-Riz]
Too far to reach you
Too real to need you
Too good to be true
Too many toos
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
To you it may seem stupid
But my heart just won't go through it
Ignoring would be foolish
Specially when I've just been through this
Of course we've gotten close
Of course a bonds created
Our late night conversations
Moments like that are sacred
They’ll scar my memory
For better or worse
And though my heart is falling for you
I just can't stay the course
You say I've never given us
A chance
And limit us
But giving up we interrupt
The image of us giving fucks
About each other
Being distant and icy
If ever scorned
Fucking my friends just to spite me
Being privy to the skinny
Of how love is so iffy
I'd be silly not to quilly
If I really have it in me
Right now it’s not work
But what happens when it is
Will you seek other men
With "advice" to give
Then of course I’ll be a scrub boo
With too many toos
Too plain, too nice
Generous to a fault boo
[Chorus 2X – K-Riz]
Too far to reach you
Too real to need you
Too good to be true
Too many toos
[Verse 3 – Arlo Maverick]
There’s no greater evidence of intellect’s curfew
Then the fact my mistakes
Get mistaken as virtues
That moment you met me in
I live that every night
So prepare for a life
Of long and lonely nights
Lowly in its heights
As you wrestle with images
Of me being intimate
With women that I’m pictured with
Then you’ll start to question
Am I fearless of careless
Deserving novelty
Wanna be prodigy
That passion of our first night
That felt so nice
Why do you only hear it in the songs I write
Newness that’s my fuel miss
You crave routine
A man who’ll mow the lawn
On the Sundays you clean
Pretty soon you’ll have to lie
And say you don’t mind
The fact that I cancel reservations all the time
Then of course I’ll be a scrub boo
With too many toos
Too manic, too selfish
Too good to be true
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[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
I was barely one
When you came from Jamaica
Momma working two jobs
So you came to raise her
One and only son
Forget the daycare
Far too costly
And kids never played fair
Mom was always working
Cause bills kept piling
Plus she had to send money back to the Island
Maybe that’s why I spent most of my time with you
Sing a couple hymns from a book that’s blue
Memba being teased by them kids at school
I came home and asked why they were so cruel
You held me and told me
Forgive them Soup
They know not what they have done to you
Hurt cause I thought you had took their side
Peckish for destruction and they took my pride
Proud like my father but you showed me strength
Is the courage not to fight even when you can
[Chorus 1X – Timothy Noel]
Now I’m a man
And I see what I really had
I wish I saw then
What I see now in my hindsight
So I’m hurting
I’m hurting
Inside
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Sunday morning we at Church
Back that evening
Rest of the week
Choir and prayer meetings
Needless to say
With Mom at work
I tagged along with Grandma
And was always church
It was here I met instruments and melodies
Picked it up so easy
That I figured it was meant for me
Eventually words would become my muse
Farfetched dream
But you’d still approved
Didn’t disregard what I hope to be
Only thing you asked
That I get my degree
Kept my promise
And got my degree
But in coming of age
You saw less of me
Maybe that’s the reason
You ain’t tell a soul
That you were fighting cancer
By the time we’d know
The cancer’s growth
Gave you months to live
Where was my time from before to give?
[Chorus 1X – Timothy Noel]
Now I’m a man
And I see what I really had
I wish I saw then
What I see now in my hindsight
So I’m hurting
I’m hurting
Inside
[Verse 3 – Arlo Maverick]
How could I be selfish
To someone so selfless
To gain a dollar
You could say I lost my senses
So caught up with my music
I would visit you less
Taking you for granted
Never figured you’d get
Old or even ill
But mortalities real
As I wrestle with these thoughts
It’s distracting me still
You introduced me to music
Then I left you to wife it
Now thing I love most
Now symbolizes
Pain and regret
And the reason that I’m lonely
The reason why my loved ones
No longer can hold me
Wish you were here
But then you would suffer
Sadly it took me
This to discover
The meaning of scriptures
You read to me
Or the hymns you would sing
Just to remedy
When I questioned your illness
You said it’s his plan
Even though my heart agrees
I can’t understand
[Outro – Timothy Noel]
Can you hear me
I’m saying I love you
Can you hear me
I’m saying thank you
Can you hear me
I’m saying I miss you
And I’m hurting
Inside
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10. |
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[Chorus 2X – Nigel Williams]
Oh
The love is gone
If you look for me
Then you will see
That I’m already gone
[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
Baby there’s something on my mind
Do you mind if we talk
I’m prolly totally off base
Nonetheless we should talk
I want to chalk it up to nothing
The product of insecurity
There’s things I’m seeing lately
That tell me you prefer to be
[Verse 1 – Adora]
Where’s this coming from
Is this about last night?
I told you it was my girl
[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
Oh, is that right
You said it was your Mother
Which leads me to believe
Well I
Wanna believe
I’m not being deceived
Noticed you living in a vacuum
More time in the bathroom
You act new
Defensive when I’d ask you
To make sense of these scents
And dollars spent on clothes
Foreign smells to my nose
I question if you pose
In your lingerie collection
The one that has grown
But never do I view
Cause you’re never in the mood
Spent money I ain’t have to buy a ring for you
Don’t even know his name
But I envy dude
Ain’t dressed like this in forever
Why him
To entice him
Do you like him
Why him
[Verse 1 – Adora]
Please
Don’t accuse me
There’s no him
And there’s never been
Anyone or anything
That’s ever been close to this
[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
See I was hoping for honesty
But obviously you’ve consciously
Made the choice to lie to me
But out of curiosity
What is it you gain
From these lies you tell
Was it greener or just due
Cause you can’t hide your smell
[Chorus 2X – Nigel Williams]
Oh
The love is gone
If you look for me
Then you will see
That I’m already gone
[Verse 2 – Adora]
I’m last person you wanna speak with
But I can no longer hurt you with all these secrets
And I should’ve come clean
When you asked me
But a future with you gone was looking at me
Please understand that I never meant to hurt you
I love you more than life
That’s why I learnt to
Accept that your work came before us
But I wish the trappings of success offered more love
Cause now we barely see each other
And we never talk
And that ain’t like you
And this ain’t like us
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
So you justify your actions
Complaining that I’m absent
Like your sexual advances
Might’ve never happened if
[Verse 2 – Adora]
How dare you resent me
When this house was empty
So many nights you left me
And let loneliness tempt me
You take me for granted
Yet I match your work
Accepting that I’m second
And your music is first
I get you on the come up
But these conversations come up
Cause we always cancel plans
Cause something else will come up
We sposed to be a team
But I feel it’s only me
Whose trying save our love
Cause you’d
Much rather be
Writing songs for your fans
But its not them its me
Vying for your love
No its not them its me
But no, it’s all about you
Cause you’re so fucking selfish
And to think I even questioned
If I’d kept it
[Chorus 2X – Nigel Williams]
Oh,
The love is gone
If you look for me
Then you will see
That I’m already gone
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11. |
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[Intro 2X – Oozeela]
Maybe Tomorrow
I’ll do therapy but not today
I got some marijuana smoke
I wanna blow away
Maybe Tomorrow
I’ll do therapy but not today
I got some marijuana smoke
I wanna blow away
[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
Do you mind if I have a little peace
A little bit of time to myself while I piece
The thoughts you have shattered by drilling for answers
You say I have buried beneath
Maybe you’re hoping to see
Me sitting there in that seat
But I’ve taken the break I’ve been meaning to take
So today its just me and my weed
Bet you’ll say we were getting so close
So
Something’s are best left on their own
No
Poking for truths you say that I hide
Maybe its best I don’t know, so
Maybe its best if we leave
Those demons before they don’t leave
And keep me up late to contemplate faith
I just started getting some sleep
… I can’t believe I bother with
… this therapy’s monotonous
… we all got our problems bitch
… so I don’t feel like talking shiiiiiit
[Chorus 1X – Oozeela & Muta Mouraine]
Take another drag
And blow it out
And blow it out
And blow it out
Take another drag
And blow it out
And blow it out
And blow it out
Take another drag
Inhale it in
Exhale it out
As I take it in
And let it out
Inhale it in
Exhale it out
As I take it in
And let it out
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Remind me again why you care
If I died today would your ass even care
Nah, I’d just be a dummy who gave you his money
So you could just sit in that chair
Judging the things that I have done
Correct me if I may be wrong
But if you’re only human and I’m only human
How can right all my wrongs
Annoyed by the questions you ask
Whoa
Do you need to know intimate facts
No
How did I feel? Do I feel loved?
Your questions often make me mad, so
What are you hoping to find
I feel like your wasting my time
Leave me alone I don’t wanna talk
Let me just settle my mind
… I won’t be coming back again
… If I need help I’ll call a friend
… Cause all you do is take my ends
… But these cuts you can never mend
[Chorus 1X – Oozeela & Muta Mouraine]
Take another drag
And blow it out
And blow it out
And blow it out
Take another drag
And blow it out
And blow it out
And blow it out
Take another drag
Inhale it in
Exhale it out
As I take it in
And let it out
Inhale it in
Exhale it out
As I take it in
And let it out
[Verse 3 – Arlo Maverick]
Probably figured that I’m late
I’m entitled to a break
If my Gram was here today
She’d say boy where is your faith
See I’m losing my religion
Cause her ears ain’t here to listen
Thinking while I’m sippin
How’d she move in this position
Promised I’d stop smoking
But right now its all I got
Promised I’d stop drinking
But right now it’s all I got
Promised I’d do church
But all they do is judge
Can’t promise forgiveness
Then how can they promise love
[Outro 2X – Oozeela]
Maybe Tomorrow
I’ll do therapy but not today
I got some marijuana smoke
I wanna blow away
Maybe Tomorrow
I’ll do therapy but not today
I got some marijuana smoke
I wanna blow away
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12. |
A Raisin In The Son
03:31
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[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
Is it wrong that I envy
Statuses of pregnancies
The density of jealousy
Hardened cause I’ll never be
Could this be remedied
Or maybe it’s my destiny
Possibly some penalty
For putting her love secondly
Maybe it’s my father’s sins
Haunting his next of kin
Should I bother with
What if I fathered kids
What have I committed
But thought it was omitted
Will haunt my son or daughter
Or God forbid their children
Never say never
But however
Will I ever have successors
Or merely be a picture on my mother’s dresser
Tired of fielding questions
Marriage and carriage
Am I ready to be a husband
Ready to be a parent
Everybody’s answer
You’re not getting younger
So I just pander
And give any number
They questioning my manhood
With statements like
Seedless and nearly 30
No prospective wife
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Some say I’ll never marry cause my girl ain’t got that it factor
But when your mistress is success I mean does it matter
Hopeless romantic who disguises it with antics
Wear my heart upon my sleeve
But still cover it with jackets
Food for thought
Why should we ever marry?
When every wise woman brainwashed by Tyler Perry
Do bad all by myself
Don’t need your voluntary
Good deeds
Which are often temporary
I don’t fear failure
I fear I’ll fail her
Fear she won’t wait here
And leave for what’s safer
Leave for stability
Some dude with an 8 to 4
Benefits and a salary that’s making sure
Bills get paid
Cause I remember days
Momma had to slave
So rent wasn’t late
I’d die before you face
What she went through
Cause my life without you’s an instrumental
[Verse 3 – Arlo Maverick]
See I loved my Pops
But could never justify
His absence in my life
If he just had tried
Financial instability
Feeling he’s not ready yet
Not sure mom’s the one
Hadn’t finished college yet
That’s all he offered
When I questioned his absence
That’s all she offered
When I questioned her ration
Where was my say
Did it matter at all
Such a major decision
Only you made the call
Maybe guilt got the best
Either way that some gall
See that burden of proof
Was a child I would call
My son or my daughter
Be it mine or it his
See it’s hard to empathize
With the horrors that live
In your mind
Taking the life of your first born
I wanna be there for her
That’s where I’m torn
Could I learn to forgive
And let it all go
If the tables were turn
Could she swallow
Her pride
If I ever had a side chick
That carried a child
Baring my likeness
I imagine she’d call my ass trifling
But because I was gone
I’m supposed to wife it
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13. |
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[Chorus – Arlo Maverick]
You keep on tellin’ me I changed
But I can’t say that I care (Can’t)
Can’t say that I care (Uh-Uh)
Can’t say that I care
You keep on tellin’ me I changed
But I can’t say that I care (Can’t)
Can’t say that I care (Uh-Uh)
Can’t say that I care no more
[Verse 1 – Arlo Maverick]
Life is what you make it
Yet so many dream
Sleeping on realities
That should’ve been
But never seen
I just want success
Does she want me too
I want her to
I’d cheat on content
If she ask me to
Her attributes
Change my attitude
Oh the magnitude
Don’t have one
But I can’t have two
One or the other
Do I really have to
Deciding would mean one’s of lesser value
Deciding would mean I love one of you less
Seduced by success who knows you best
Fans that await
Songs that you write
Tattoo your words
To carry for life
Or the woman who stayed when this didn’t exist
When money was low
Picked up on shifts
Could’a said no
Learn how to pitch
Could balance be found in the low of the mix
If tables were turned
And she were the star
Could I trust her to leave and come back with my heart
What happened to us
What happened to me
What happens to you
Still matters to me
[Chorus 1X – Arlo Maverick]
You keep on tellin’ me I changed
But I can’t say that I care (Can’t)
Can’t say that I care (Uh-Uh)
Can’t say that I care
You keep on tellin’ me I changed
But I can’t say that I care (Can’t)
Can’t say that I care (Uh-Uh)
Can’t say that I care no more
[Chorus Part 2 1X – Arlo Maverick]
I may be wrong
But I doubt it
Cause my pride won’t allow it
Hold your breath
I’ll start counting
1, 2, 3, 4
I’ll start counting
I may be wrong
But I doubt it
Cause my pride won’t allow it
Hold your breath
I’ll start counting
1, 2, 3, 4
I’ll start counting
[Verse 2 – Arlo Maverick]
Cheating is just cheating
It don’t really matter how
Some cheat with their hearts
Others cheat with your doubts
Many cheat with desires
My eyes stared at success
But did I cheat her out love
As her heart clearly suggests
See I’m more than a sinner
But I’m far from a saint
Know that a slivers a reason to wait
One or the other
But you can’t choose fate
Live in the moment and fuck what they say
Love in the moment and hearts cannot stray
Trust them and misery’s all that awaits
Maybe I changed
Forgot who I was
Maybe with fame
Forgot who I loved
Who is to the blame for the tears on your heart
Maybe I’m lying by tryn’a restart
More pressures of fame
Will I stay the same
When the measures of reign open windows of pain
Will I push you away?
Lead you to stray?
Revisiting pain you thought went away
Can’t promise nothing
Let alone me
When shit hits the fan I’m not sure who I’ll be
[Chorus 1X – Arlo Maverick]
You keep on tellin’ me I changed
But I can’t say that I care (Can’t)
Can’t say that I care (Uh-Uh)
Can’t say that I care
You keep on tellin’ me I changed
But I can’t say that I care (Can’t)
Can’t say that I care (Uh-Uh)
Can’t say that I care no more
[Chorus Part 2 1X – Arlo Maverick]
I may be wrong
But I doubt it
Cause my pride won’t allow it
Hold your breath
I’ll start counting
1, 2, 3, 4
I’ll start counting
I may be wrong
But I doubt it
Cause my pride won’t allow it
Hold your breath
I’ll start counting
1, 2, 3, 4
I’ll start counting
[Outro – Arlo Maverick]
You keep on tellin’ me I changed
But I can’t say that I care (Nah)
Can’t say that I care (Uh-Uh)
Can’t say that I care
You keep on tellin’ me I changed
But I can’t say that I care (Nah)
Can’t say that I care (Uh-Uh)
Can’t say that I care
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14. |
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[Verse – Arlo Maverick]
Rather than pour a drink
This time I’m pouring my soul
Live in these glass bottles
Yet I still throw stones
At the woman who loves me
Never did you judge me
Nights I reeked of failure
And all you did was hug me
Laid with me
Nurse my insecurities
Running to your arms like as if they held the cure for me
Telling me you had enough
Never did I listen though
I said I loved you
But never did my actions show
I wanted more for us
Thought we’d have everything
Now all I have is music
But where’s the resonance
Could there be a part of me
That’s secretly pleased to see
My seed not in poverty
Doubting my capability
Henny burning my chest
I won’t give it a rest
Though it burdens my breath
It still burgeons my stress
The charred remains of my father’s sins
His, “I don’t give a fuck”
Is where my life begins
Don’t share his name
But his pain nonetheless
Wishing that I cared
But I’m numb from the cess
Disappointments all I ever knew
Somehow I, became him
Without intending to
See I love her in a time
That no longer exists
The only time that it can
When my lips reminisce
Spent emotionally
From sessions that’ve opened me
To seeing what I couldn’t see
Standing in front of me
That once upon we
We were making plans
On our power couple shit
You stood by your man
If someone would’ve told me we would end up here
I would’ve called them crazy
Cause our love was rare, my dear
But we’re only human
And lust can blinds us
For sake of feeling special
We leave love behind us
Sacrifice stability
For those who eye us
Forgetful of our soldiers with that do or die love
Life seemed so simple
Till I bought that ring
What it symbolizes
Changed up everything
We stop living for us
And we lived for them
They became our truth
Should’ve looked within
Lines of credits
Maxing Visa bills
Be careful of your friends
Their ideas will
Have you thinking marriage
Is something it’s not
They fear opinions but never God’s
I wanna call her and ask that we try again
But if I wasn’t wrong
Why should I bend
Staring at her picture
Like the answer stored
Itself in this image
Worth a thousand words
Pride go before
Is what my Gram would say
So if I love her
I’ll find a way
[Chorus 1X – Oozeela]
I might pretend that I don’t want you
(I will chase you forever)
I might pretend that I don’t need you
(I will chase you forever)
I might pretend that I don’t love you
(I will chase you forever)
But I will chase you
(I will chase you forever)
Forever
(I will chase you forever)
I might pretend that I don’t love you
(I will chase you forever)
I might pretend that I don’t need you
(I will chase you forever)
I might pretend that I don’t want you
(I will chase you forever)
But I will chase you
(I will chase you forever)
Forever
(I will chase you forever)
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Arlo Maverick Edmonton, Alberta
Arlo Maverick is a hip-hop MC whose sound explores Jazz, Electro, and Soul yet identifies itself as hip-hop through fusing nuances of hip-hop’s golden era and Jazz theory. Lyrically Arlo Maverick’s music is a poetic narration of everyday life experiences. For Maverick it is as much about moving his audience physically as it is about moving them emotionally. ... more
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